September 25, 2005
More quiet time.At Timbre last night. It was a quiet night, which made me believe that many of the Timbre-goers are soccer fans too.
The usual songs, but different menu. We had pizza. Very good! But I still miss my peach cooler. It used to be the default drink if I'm not having beer.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:29
Snatching minutes from my date...It was a semi-spontaneous decision to go there after we had dinner at Ichiban Sushi. We love sushi and we love the sushi there. Fair priced, lotsa variety and the service is relatively worth the 10% service charge.
We took bus 33 there. The journey felt shorter than I expected, probably cos I was half asleep half of the way.
The first thing that struck me was that, this could be one place to come to for that quiet yet familiar feeling of solitude. From the 1 to the 7, to the forum with the new lift and to the lovers' bridge, in a much quieter time of the day.
I fell asleep on the way home, in the cab. But, I felt contented and very at peace then.
xxx
... with a vamipre III.Anybody has VCD of "My Date With A Vampire III"? Can lend? Or rent out to me? Puhlease...
I cannot accept that the assumption made was that viewers of the show are vampires who don't have to work early the next morning. How can they screen such shows from 11pm - 1am. I'm still quite sore about it. Sheeshh...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:14
September 20, 2005
An appealTopic: Moral police.This is an appeal for readers of this blog to write, wax lyrical, sing praises, anything, on the above topic. Moral police.
Yes, anything that comes to your mind. Share with me, a piece of your mind, please.
If you have a blog that I can copy and paste your write-up from, I'd be glad to pop by and do it. Cos I believe my comment page will not be sufficient for some. =)
xxx
Military police.We saw them yesterday. Outside Far East Shopping Centre, opposite Thai Embassy. Don't know what they were there for, only they looked like they know something that we don't.
Then, I realised... that is not true. They don't know anything that we don't. If they did, they wouldn't have been there to patrol. They are there to instil fear, to prevent something, anything, from happening. They are there to instil paranoia.
I thought they looked slightly amusing, and pathetic.
Maybe it's just my mood then.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:55
Did He really say that?That, love is the only weapon against fear and hatred?
If so, march on, Love. Do not succumb to the pressure of the fools in the desert. Quench their thirst for gossip and their pespectives of many blind eyes simply by living the way you always believed to live.
I suspect there is no enemy, except fear.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:50
September 18, 2005
Cotton pillowI bought a new cotton pillow. I had felt like wanting to sleep. And sleep, sleep for a long, long time. I still feel like it.
Can someone make sure I know what is the grand plan when I wake up?
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:40
I paused and I gazed and there's still nothing left to think, nothing right to do.I had wanted to post this entry a few days before. But I didn't. Cos I wanted to give it some time, give myself some time, to see if it would be a sensible thing to do, to see if after a few days, I would really still want to do it. Still want to post what I'm going to post here.
Funny how I get a lot of thinking and deciding done in the toilet. This time, this evening, it was in the toilet at Plaza Sing.
It's really no big deal. I don't think it is. I just want to step out, shout it out loud. I have a love life. I am seeing someone. I am dating someone. This someone is Kay OKA Girl here in my blog. Obviously, she's a she. If you need to gasp, at least, don't ask stupid questions.
There is no closet. This is no skeleton. We care about each other more than a lot of couples I've seen, we make each other secure and happy, more than a lot of couples I've seen. We put in that extra effort to make our relationship work, more than a lot of couples who neglected that a relationship is not a given, it has to be worked at.
So, if you see me holding hands with this girl who sometimes act like an adorable little girl, if you see me resting my head on her shoulders, be glad for me. Otherwise, I'm not asking for your blessing.
If I had needed anyone's opinion, trust me, I would have asked for it.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:25
September 16, 2005
Allergic to intelligenceThe above title inspired by FVB's blog.
xxx
Vincent (Starry Starry Night)...
Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now...
...
Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:14
CurtainShe shared her blog. I didn't expect her to. I didn't need her to. She did. After keeping it exclusive and secret for so long.
I only found out that, there is an understanding between us that takes us to where even a journey to the most exclusive and secretive of blogs can't. 13 years of true support, acceptance and respect for each other differences makes us know things that can only be communicated through the nod of a head, raise of an eyebrow, turn of the mouth, and that long, ambiguous sigh.
Thank your for sharing, darling.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:20
September 10, 2005
This is how you know. Thoughts of...
hearing from, talking to, going out with, holding hands with, hugging with, laughing with, looking into, gazing into, leaning against, dining with, gossiping with, doing things with, quietly being with, sharing with...
makes her an essential reason for so much more smiles right from the heart.
Thank you dearie.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:35
The little purplish-red dot on my noseI've this little scab on my nose and I find my fingers scratching on it and tryin to pick it out, to no avail. It's quite annoying. But good modulation.
xxx
As It Is In HeavenWatched it with girl. Hey D, if you are reading this... I forgot to sms you right after I watched it. I would have smsed 'I beat you to watching it this time! yay!' Erm, assuming you didn't watch the 1+pm show, cos we watched the 4.20pm one.
I liked it. Like I told girl, it was quite a well-rounded show. Most details taken care of. Except the one she pointed out... about why were the children blond when both parents were not? But see, girl is a bit ASD-trait. So, can't blame her for first, paying attention to such details and second, asking such questions. But she was quite contented with the recessive gene answer that I speculated. So, let's just leave it at that.
I especially liked the role of the pastor's wife, Inger, and I thought her acting was good! I liked the girl playing the role of Lena too. I think she's quite pretty.
However, I still prefer the music of Les Choristes better. The music from Les Choristes left me thinking about it and wanting to get it and making numerous trips to the music store before I finally decided to make my buy. This one didn't.
Speaking of that, it's such a lovely weekend afternoon to just sleep in with the soundtrack playing in the background. I'd do that in awhile.
xxx
The little braggarts of empty matterI was seated to this man yesterday at a formal social dinner thingy. Suffice to say that I was there because I felt obliged to help a clan uncle in being a 'ticketing officer' there. The most meaningful thing I did last evening was to issue official receipts for people who paid for the dinner on the spot.
Anyway, back to this huge braggart of a little hare-brain. If it was an entirely acceptable polite thing to roll my eyes and shudder at his every offer of information about himself and boring line of query, I would have looked like one of those interactive dolls wired wrongly - rolling eyes instead of blinking ones and shudders instead of dance movements. It's impossible and would really bring back too much traumatic memories if I were to recount how my dinner was spent sitting beside him. But, a quintessential example of such trauma would be when he said he's not a honey-tongued man and so could not mingle well with the rest of the crowd (specifically the many tai tais who were also at the event). My new friend sitting on my right (a rather humble lady who plays chinese musical instrument very well) merely smiled. I offered something better. I smiled AND raised my eyebrow. In the way that hopefully conveys 'Damn right, you joker! Now, just shut up!'
I once saw this sign that says... are you always this stupid or are you trying very hard today?
I think I should get one of this and pin it on my super ugly blazer the next time I attend such events.
Alternatively, I can use one of the visuals we use in school - Quiet Mouth.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:42
September 09, 2005
2 down, 4 left to make that leap.In less than 10 hours time, there will be a Teo Soh in our group, an addition to the sub-group of 'tua soh' among the 6 of us girls. Ong Soh, I'm sure, will welcome such an addition. heh... It's been a lonely chore buying fish from the wet market eh?
I spent the 45 minutes after my shower just now thinking about what to wear for later, and how I should do my hair. I decided to stop at that and not go on to what colours to paint my face with.
I've 2 pins and 2 mini clips on my fringe now and I'm gonna sleep with them. Purpose? To keep my hair down the way I want them to, to give them sometime to get used to their new position for today. heh... Quite a feat. Cos I just trimmed my hair and the layers are shorter now. It's quite messy. But, there is some beauty in chaos eh?
I wonder how does Juan feel now? Might she be asleep already? Or excited? Or emotional? Or anxious? Would she dream of the vows? It must feel kind of scary... hee.. one signature, and a new identity, new responsibilities, new rights, etc. I imagine if it were me, I'd probably be a bit commitment phobic now. haha.. sheesh.. Lucky I know I'm not the only one who would react this way. And, not the worse. I still can't picture bblics seeing someone, let alone marrying someone. Looks like we both gonna be competition for each other on the shelf.
However, with Juan off the shelf, the remaining ones just get more space to park themselves for now. heh...
xxx
We've shared in your lives, I know we will share more after today. Congratulations, Juan jie and Raymond (who used to be our jiemei too... hmm)!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:04
September 08, 2005
A Duck in an OmeletteThe question to start today's randomness is... how important is it that your partner knows how to cook (and is actually willing to saute herself in a smoky kitchen to cook for you)?
My answer? Not very important. I'm a fair and reasonable person. Because I don't like to cook and spa myself in smoke, smell and oil in the process, I do not expect my partner to cook for me too. Although it must be understood that in the event that my partner does cook for me, I make sure I do my fair bit in washing up.
However, some kind of luck, I often end up with partners who not only enjoy food tremendously, but also, to some extent, enjoy the process of culinary preparation. That means I often end up having free dinners although I have to wait a bit for that process to take place and ultimately, end with a sizzle. But, in the process, hey! Free smell! Like Famous Amos' tagline.
I had whiffs of minced pork with black soya sauce and omelette awhile ago. My girl just announced the rice may not be very warm cos it was in the fridge. But, we can have it together with the soup. No problems with that at all!
Now, mummy used to say food taste best when eaten fresh and hot! So, I'm going to have to stop here because dinner is ready!
What, is the colour of happiness? *wink*
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 19:41
September 05, 2005
Posted RomanceI returned home today. I sat by my com, logged onto my MSN. To my utmost surprise, I saw Joe has requested to add me to his contact list. I went to drop by his blog awhile ago. There is a song playing on his blog... it's Rain, by Breaking Benjamin. Erm, I know this because he posted the song title and the album in his blog, along with many other music he's been listening to. Nice song.
I saw a photo of him jamming with guitar, somewhere. He's supposed to play a song for me and/or inform me to be part of the audience when he performs a gig. That was many, many months back.
It's very good to see him. Besides the fact that he's my first salsa partner (I still remember how we floundered together at this beach bar in ECP), I do have rather fond memories of how we supported each other with our grey matter and post-romantic opinions in the forum where we got acquainted.
And as I read through some of the entries in his blog just now, I felt a slight sense of nostalgia for the days when I spent hours putting forth my 1 cent worth of thoughts on discussion boards and waiting by my inbox for any response from anyone at all.
I used to have more time for such things.
xxx
He changed his nic to...My brain has 2 parts: On the left,there is nothing right, on the right, there is nothing left.
He is Shaohao. Funny, fren! haa
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 21:53
September 04, 2005
My darling.Seemed pretty stressed up and tired yesterday. Shaun said she was being abrasive yesterday. I think she's just tired and probably left with no choice but to attend a BBQ that she didn't exactly look forward to, albeit apple and my enthusiasm.
She was pretty fierce to me even! When I asked what time were we leaving. Everyone asked if she's ok. Except me. I think she's ok. She will be, she will have to be. She's just tired. We didn't get to see all her concealed yawns cos she was facing the stage with her back to us. We didn't get to know her fatigue from all the nonsense she gets from work. But, it will be all right. This darling gets tough when the going gets rough.
Rest well, darling. We'll see you tonight again. With a different group.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:29
Hail the Holidays!For all you envious people out there, this is how I started my Term 3 school holiday.
1. We went to a Hang-out hotel. Superbly nice. Feels as cosy as stepping into my own bedroom, minus the messy desk and the floor of fallen out hair and the bags containing my Teacher's Day cards and gifts. I think it's a great way to mark the closure of the school term and to awaken the holiday spirit officially. This, is where I'm blogging now.
2. We had a BBQ. We is Apple, Shaun, Arthur, Wenn, Kay and me. Kyn would have been able to join us over the miles through a phone line connection. Too bad that FVB didn't get to call us in time at all! What a bummer!
Now, I must say that this BBQ is the very first one I attended in which the food was all gone (ya, cept for 3 pears and some Otah that were 'donated' to us by some other BBQers). And, it's such a quick thing. It took us only about three hours from getting the BBQ going to the food gone down our tummies! Whether it was Jamie Oliver or Martin Yan, I think they were great! Our chefs for the BBQ - Shaun and Arthur the King. And, Thank you Mama for the Sotong and Stingray. Really, the quality of the sotong depended on the one who took it out of the pit at the perfect timing! That, Ahem, will be me~!
3. Ok. Hold your breath. I did hold mine as we approached a place so pleasantly familiar, wondering if the voice we were hearing was the same voice we heard about one and half years back. I think, for Wenn's case, was it the same pairing? He who holds the guitar holds a lot for her. *wink*
Same old brand new placeIt is. No, no longer Fat Frog Cafe; no longer a hole in the wall cafe. Revamped, it's called Timbre. Sidenote: I would have loved so much to put the hyperlink to their webbie here. But, I'm a selfish person. I don't want you all to know about it, save for those who already know... simply cos they've been following my blog since long enough time ago to figure out what and where I'm talking about. It's a really special place to me and despite it being such a superb place to hang out alfresco-style, I want that bit of exclusivity. hoho...
Same old place, same old genre of music, same old singers, but better band equipment I can tell, toilet at the same old place, new menu, same old kinda pricing, new decor do-up, new name. And, yes, bumped into the same old people there.
Bumped into Joe and Jeremy! As usual, Jeremy first then Joe. Haa.. What can I say? Honestly, as I stepped into Timbre, one of my first thought was to scan the place for them, either Joe or Jem. For about an hour or so, I was certain that they knew about the place and did not inform me! Boy, was I disappointed! Then Jem walked in, with his gf. You know the feeling of familiarity, esp at a place like this... it's like... enough to make your day. A perfect way to start the holiday.
Then, Jem said Joe was already there. I turned around, and hey, presto! There he was! Apparently, he emailed me about the revamp of the place but cos it was to my defunct account, I didn't read it yet. Honestly, I was just thinking of him when Nuris was singing 'Angel'. Cos it's the song that I used to associate F.F with Joe.
Wenn said 'This is THE place man'. I told D and Eug about it. Smsed them. Yes, this is THE place. The new old place. I told Ah Girl my default hang out place has been found and defaulted again.
I repeat, a perfect way to start the holiday.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:03
September 02, 2005
Unidentified students on the streets.May I suggest that all students be banned from roaming on the streets, especially in hordes, on Teacher's Day?
It is teacher's day, for goodness sake! Why are all you students out fighting for space with the teachers in the already crammed Orchard road and the like? Stay home and do your homework, revise, research, learn something, watch cartoons, whatever! Just stay home.
It's like having a school holiday and only going out to find that you are in a bigger school with even more unidentified students roaming around you. Takashimaya, Suntec City, Bugis... all turned into schools. Exasperating.
xxx
My 2nd attempt.So far, so good. But, I just experienced a little nod off. I think I'm dozing off in front of my com again. Really bad. That's it, folks... Would write more when I can.
Meanwhile, tomorrow's the last day of school for this term. The long-awaited break.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:13
September 01, 2005
I painted a sky that she guessed was the sea.I was really quite bored, plus the fact that I have this mental note in my mind that I wanted to 'clear out'. So, I decided to paint, just like how I imagined I would when I first saw the sky from where she was pointing. Actually, I thought it turned out pretty fine. I mean, I was ready to tear from my sketch book, let it dry and use it as a card kind of thing. But, I tore it while tryin to tear it out. So, I guess it's a goner.
She came, I showed, she asked. No, darling, I didn't draw the sea. Good try! I'm slightly better with dry colours, like crayons.
xxx
Do not leave any spaces between us.I went to the Spook Show last Saturday. It's the 2nd time I got invited to such magic performance by the Christian community.
The thing about magic for un-gullible, jaded people like me, is that... magic loses its charm until the magician shares the tricks of the trade. So, I was sitting there, looking at all those deceptions (the word used by the magician, who is also the Pastor), thinking... 'Seen this before... what's next?' I was very close to falling asleep. So were the people who went with me.
Naturally, we didn't stay to finish hearing the 'Turn to God' talk after the show. Somewhere in the mid of the show, I remembered Annie and Snow telling me about the movie 'Devil's Advocate' during our very first GID. And, I was like... really, who's the devil?
Do not leave any spaces between us... Fall into the light. hmm...
xxx
Grief... a word that cannot begin to describe itself.A colleague's husband passed away a couple days ago. Of Dengue fever, the fatal strain. My colleague is rather young, in fact, not that much older than myself. However, she's been married with her husband for many years.
I am hardly close to this colleague. The only few words we exchanged were those regarding her class students' overdue library books. But I felt really sorry and sad after hearing about his passing away. Sad enough not to be able to make any comments about it.
Honestly, how does one express condolences? I didn't go to the wake because I really didn't know what to do or say in time like this. I think, unless you know the deceased personally, and therefore may be able to share your feelings and appreciation for the person with the loved ones, it's really difficult for others to share grief. Besides 'I'm really sorry', what else is apt in such time? We all overcome grief, somehow. But, while we are still overcoming it, whose strength can we really borrow from except our own?
Death doesn't really frighten me. Death of my loved ones does. Whenever I hear news of grief of people around me, I get a bit affected by how life is so impermanent, so unpredictable. In the face of it, we are helpless, clueless and totally ignorant subjects, just waiting for it to creep up on us.
xxx
In my draft, I typed the word 'youth'.Now, I can't remember what I was supposed to blog about that might revolve around this word. Jeez...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:35